sth tremendous took place today and i was exposed to sth i never thought i'd experience. everything was so melodramatic i would've thought i was watching a channel8 drama serial. yet the relatives' cries were so real i could no longer deny the truth. it was indeed a heart-wrenching moment but what can human do when life is being unkind? we can only huddle tgt for warmth, comfort and support.

this incident made me understand my own faith at a whole new level. everything seems to come alive. real people with real problems. real people with real needs. real people in real situations. christianity really isnt just singing some songs on some regular saturdays. he didnt come all the way just for us to sing some songs unto him. he came primarily to restore. and he's real, amidst us.
wow it's already the 2nd day of new year. of a dreadful new year. and i have yet to set my new year resolutions. not to mention, i've yet done my holiday assignments as well. haha. thinking back on 2006, it has indeed been a fruitful year in which i've grown. looking ahead.. im ambivalent abt it. i feel anxious yet i anticipate the new year. it saddens me yet it excites me. part of me wants to reminisce yet part of me tells me to move on. it's so bizzare how one can have such opposing feelings all at the same time. i've never felt this much toward a new year as i did for this. perhaps because i know what is installed for me. perhaps because i can actually visualise what is to come. and perhaps because i've no idea how to handle it. i guess i can only fall back to the arms of grace.